Post by Deleted on Jul 26, 2018 18:53:09 GMT -5
Ashe continued to eat forkful after forkful of her food. It seemed to be pretty effective in letting her suppress what she felt, but if she knew any better, she wouldn't make a habit of emotional eating in the future. Though if her paranoid thoughts held true, she wouldn't have to worry about it anyway. And in what felt like no time at all, she was setting her fork aside and looking up at Tau. 'I don't think I'd had an episode like that since I was still in schooling.. Leave it to my crazy side to keep me steeled in the face of impending disappointment though, I suppose.' She thought to herself and then twitched her nose. "I enjoyed it quite a bit, if I'm honest. It definitely helped my mood." Ashe continued to speak maybe in not so much a cold one, but perhaps more accurately, a cool one. "I only said that because I was told to say that, Tau.. I really only wanted to get away from what's left of Tenebrae. Which, if your father was intent on passing down light Elemi culture.. That must mean that on some level you find me disgusting, no? Maybe evil like a cliche cartoon villain rendered by some emotional teenager?" There was certainly venom to her words, but none was really meant to have been directed at Tau.
She then sighed deeply, leaning forward onto the table and resting her chin on her arms that had just before been folded in front of her. "Of course.. That would be if he were the militaristic sort. Maybe I'm not giving you enough credit. You're not just saying all of that stuff about me to make me stay?" She asked the question after turning her gaze somewhat to look at Tau without the defeated looking position she was in. She could conceal her feelings as much as she pleased, but she couldn't very well hide that they were having some effect on her. Ashe already found it impossible to be mean. "But no, I do hate being social. I hate people in general, really. And if I've got a lot of heart as you say, then I had better keep hiding it.. Hearts are a fragile thing, you know. Once you've opened yourself up to things like hate and love, you've doomed yourself most out of all."
She paused to reflect on Tau's words, putting her jaded views of matters of the heart aside for now. "I don't know what I want.. Everything is confusing and stressful. I don't understand half of what I'm feeling and I feel like I'm gonna explode."
WC: 441
She then sighed deeply, leaning forward onto the table and resting her chin on her arms that had just before been folded in front of her. "Of course.. That would be if he were the militaristic sort. Maybe I'm not giving you enough credit. You're not just saying all of that stuff about me to make me stay?" She asked the question after turning her gaze somewhat to look at Tau without the defeated looking position she was in. She could conceal her feelings as much as she pleased, but she couldn't very well hide that they were having some effect on her. Ashe already found it impossible to be mean. "But no, I do hate being social. I hate people in general, really. And if I've got a lot of heart as you say, then I had better keep hiding it.. Hearts are a fragile thing, you know. Once you've opened yourself up to things like hate and love, you've doomed yourself most out of all."
She paused to reflect on Tau's words, putting her jaded views of matters of the heart aside for now. "I don't know what I want.. Everything is confusing and stressful. I don't understand half of what I'm feeling and I feel like I'm gonna explode."
WC: 441